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Saturday, August 23, 2008

Dear God





DEAR GOD

Dear God, I was bad today
Mommy just told me so,
Don't know how I could have stopped
Just thought you'd want to know.

When I awoke this morning
And got up out of bed,
I had an accident in my pants
Oh No!!!!!!Mommy's eyes saw red.

She threw me hard against the floor
I cried in pain and fear,
I tried to cover my ears so tight
So the words I would not hear.

"You dirty, dirty, little thing"
These words were etched in place,
She took my panties off from me
And rubbed poop right in my face.

Oh how I cried, but, with a slap
I shut my mouth that day,
I learned to keep it all inside
Or else I would have to pay.

Dear God I wish that you would speak
To mommies everywhere,
And tell them what they do is wrong
It's just to much to bare.

And try and make them understand
That the hurt is so very real,
The outer scars will go away
But our inner self won't heal.

I know I'm just a little girl,
But I know you understand,
And I can come and talk to you
And walk with you hand in hand.

So God I just wanted you to know
Why I was so bad,
Why my mommy got mad at me
And why I feel so sad.

I know I can always count on you
When mommy doesn't care
For you will always comfort me
When I'm hurt and life's not fair.

 Mary Graziano ©
8/23/08
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9 comments:

'Tart said...

Dear Mary,
I'm sorry for your pain. I'm glad you went to God and talked to Him about what was going on. It makes me sad and angry what can happen to children. Thank you for your poem.
Love,
Tart

Putz said...

hi mary g....that which does not kill us makes us strong...did you come onto my blog site???, i saw on my counter an ontario, canada and wondered if you were lurking

Tracy said...

Mary,

I am sorry that you have this memory. If only those who parent in this way could get how much harm their actions harm and leave scars on children! It is appalling that one would parent in such a way.

Your poem is very heartfelt and well said.

Thank you for sharing.

Hugs and blessings.

Hopefulsl said...

I read both poems, and let me tell you, they both touched my heart. The Dear God one really got to me, and i am so sorry that you were treated that way....I don't understand why there are parents out there treating their children like this. I gasped when i read the part that she took your panties off and rubbed it in your face!!! OH NO, I think i too would be scared for life as well....
I'm so sorry Mary, and God does understand to how you are feeling. Very glad that you are reaching out and writing it down for all of us to read. I am also glad to have you back with us. Hope you and your hubby had a great vacation!!!!
(((((Hugs))))) & Blessings My Friend......
Love,Stacy

Deb said...

Terrible how parents use God to punish us.

Tamara said...

((((Mary))))

I am so very sorry that you had this experience. You were NEVER bad and God knows that! I hope you can find a way to know it, too. Your mother was the one that was bad.

keepers said...

Dear Mary G

You are very good at writing to express what so many have felt, just as you did. That is special and we think it is great that you share what you write.

peace and blessings

keepers

Enola said...

I found your blog from the blog carnival. You are a wonderful poet. This particular one made me cry. Thank you for sharing.

Marj aka Thriver said...

My heart aches for that little girl. She was never bad.

Mary, thanks for your wonderful poetry and for your courage to share. I know you had to wait for a while when the carnival was limping along, but I finally got this post linked up at the holiday edition of THE BLOG CARNIVAL AGAINST CHILD ABUSE. You and your poetry are a wonderful edition. Thanks for joining us!